Nothing in life is guaranteed to stay by your side forever. I have heard this over and over at my conservative baptist church in which I grew up. Of course...everything fades, everyone dies, nothing lasts absolutely forever. Yet what I need now is lasting assurance. I need the future...a promise, my husband beside me. I miss him too much, all the time, and even when we are finally pronounced as one flesh, it seems we can never be. It seems life will remain unsure, unkept. We will be alone, with thoughts of each other binding us. I don't see a future. Nothing in life is guaranteed to stay, but what if he cannot be there in the first place?